Painout (2015)

TRACKLISTING

1. Inhale

   [instrumental]

2. H.U.L.L.A.

   I waste so much time and… it’s everything now,
   Too simple and short, but it’s true for my life.
   I waste so much time and so many hearts
   To find real thing, to find real….

   High ultimate long lasting agony,
   Simple and short term for my real misery…
   
   I waste so much pain, and all of my tears,
   Thousand sunrises, in my wasted years,
   I waste so much time, to be strong and brave,
   Waiting already the time for the…

   [chorus]
   High ultimate long lasting agony,
   Simple and short term for my real misery
   Blackouts and shines – colors of life
   Diamonds and rusts – payment per time
   Life…

   [chorus]

   I waste so much time and… it’s everything now,
   Too simple and short, but it’s true for my life.
   I waste so much time, to be strong and brave,
   Awaiting already the time for the… grave

3. Weed

   Let me out of here,
   Save me from this dreaded pain,
   Take away my fear,
   Break the bars of my own jail.
   Let me out of here
   Give me water, hope to feed
   Take away my fear
   That is only what I need.

   Call me, I will wait
   Take away this tainted dream,
   Dream un-color painted,
   Semi-wet, romance bullshit.
   Call me I will wait
   I will wait for dream come true
   Dream in-color painted
   Take (me) away, not be a fool…

   [chorus]
   Raise me like a flower,
   Give me water, hope to feed…
   Ouups… mistake – I take your power
   Maybe, dear, I am weed…

   Let me out… save me from…
   Take away… broke the bars…
   Let me out… save me from…
   Take away… broke the bars…

   [chorus] x 2

4. Dreams of Vengeance

   Passive aggression / depression
   Killing… I need to make a confession
   
   [verse 1]
   My heart is full of anger
   It got blackened by this pain
   Hate runs deep inside me
   Every time I hear your name.
   Your presence is pollution
   My scar tissue is still sore
   Your dirty ways are crooked
   You disgust me to the core.

   [chorus]
   I don’t want to see how you die
   I just want you off my way
   I don’t want to see how you cry
   I just want you to feel the pain.

   [verse 2]
   I will return the favor (what you deserve)
   Maybe then I’ll rest my case (or will I?)
   When I see you crushed and weak
   Maybe then I’ll find my place.
   Just let it go they tell me (how would they know?)
   It’s easier said than done (said than done…)
   I feel defenseless and
   So this anger is my gun.

   [chorus]

   ….

   [chorus]
   [verse 2]
   [verse 1]

5. Hibernation

   [verse 1]
   I just wanna go to sleep…
   I just wanna go to sleep…
   And wake up when it’s over
   (When I’m sober)

   [verse 2]
   I just wanna go to sleep…
   I just wanna go to sleep…
   And forget all my needs
   (And regrets)

   [verse 3]
   But you won’t let me to rest
   Like a burden on my chest
   Unfinished deeds I’ve started
   (Won’t be rewarded)

   [verse 4]
   There’s so much to be done
   It’s impossible just to run
   I have to stay, to fight it through
   (And find my way)

   [verse 1]
   [verse 4]

6. Shapeshifter

   Deep down… fading…
   Instincts… waiting…

   I keep on trying
   But I could not get it right
   These visions of the paws that burrows
   Through the leaves at night
   These feelings… of the ground
   That runs beneath my feet;
   of freedom; of the brotherhood;
   of hunger’s pulsing beat…

   [chorus 1]
   Waking up to find
   The nightmares rewind
   Hear the howling children of the night
   The music that they make
   Is driving me insane
   Push my twisted mind ‘bout point to brake

   Slowly time has passed -
   Something within has turned
   When day lost all the light
   The moon summons my rebirth
   My mind and my subconscious
   Now are realigned
   Confusion of the visions
   Has been left behind

   [chorus 2]
   Can’t win this inner fight
   With nature bound so tight
   I hear the howling children of the night
   The music that they make
   Arranging my escape
   And what I once was now have gone away

   I’ve got one tail, a head, four feet,
   Some sharpen teeth to tear my meat.
   I have inside chained souls of two
   Now, is my name yet known to you?

   [chorus 2]

   [chorus 3]
   Waking up inside
   Open golden eyes
   Hear the howling children of the night
   The music that they make
   Arranging my escape
   To hunt along with them, shape shifted I

7. Nothing More to Say

   .... you try to take the best of me
   .... you even want the rest of me
   .... with every chance you get
   .... until there’s nothing left
   .... I just stood in disbelief
   .... with my heart full of grief
   .... can’t believe in my eyes
   .... like I’m hypnotized

   [chorus]
   I used to think I had your trust
   But now it’s all covered in rust
   All this time I’ve been your tool
   All this time I’ve been a fool
   I used to think I had your trust
   But now it’s all covered in rust
   It’s broken now, throw it away
   I have nothing more to say

   .... I have seen your true face
   .... you fill me up with disgrace
   .... I’ll never trust again
   .... I used to call you friend.
   .... now I’m turning up the page
   .... turning it with righteous rage
   .... everything that went before
   .... will be no more

   [chorus]

   I used to think I had your trust!

8. No One Special

   [chorus1]
   Who was I to you?
   It’s not too hard to take a guess
   No one special? I’d say “yes”
   What was I to do?
   Leave behind this wicked mess
   Follow my heart and progress

   You thought’s all just a game
   You played me all the time
   Playing with my mind.
   You left me full of pain
   I had to realize
   And open up my eyes

   [chorus1]

   Time passed, our paths – separated
   You sunk in deep, but I made it
   I’m still a kid, following this heart,
   While you played grow-up
   From the very start

   The more time passes, the more I learn
   When you give your best, It will return
   People in my life come and go
   Some of them I love,
   Some I don’t wanna know.

   It’s funny how things have changed
   I forgot your name
   Isn’t that a shame?
   I don’t remember the shape of your face
   Your smile and your eyes
   Ready to criticize

   [chorus2]
   Who are you to me?
   Guess you’re just a stranger,
   Otherwise I would remember
   What’s going to be?
   I’m climbing up the ladder,
   the rest doesn’t matter…

9. Painout

   I can’t remember any voices
   In my dreams,
   I can’t remember lights and ways
   In my dreams

   [chorus]
   But angels flight I can’t forget,
   Forever young in lovely dance…
   …in universe…
   Like a song in paradise

   Well, my time is gone
   One, two, three, four

   The gates are open, dear
   The painout days are near
   The angels’ day…. ahead.
   The final stage of wasted dreams
   The end of raped smiles and the tricks
   The end of all… ahead

   [chorus]

   I’m hypnotized, in a crazy universe
   I’m hypnotized, in these silly dreams
   End of life is dream, end of dead is beautiful
   Hypno-crazy voice, hypno-fashion style!

10. Exhale

    [instrumental]

11. Кадрил *

    * CD bonus track

    Стъпки насън в лек и безшумен стил
    Безтегловни в ритъм пуст,
    Безпосочни в безкрайна шир.
    Мисъл в несвяст, в чисто прозрачен ден -
    нарисуван в тежък цвят,
    но невидим за теб и мен
    Мирис и вкус - спомен от минал Рай
    Форма в красив ракурс
    но в безумно далечен край

    [припев]
    Сън, звън, мрак, смях
    Аз не разбрах
    Само аз не разбрах...
    Вик , стил, ден-два...
    ... чудни игри
    за болни души..

    Снимка в анфас -
    ретро посърнал вид
    Смачкан тапет за длан,
    ням декор на пропукан зид
    Дива молба -
    Обидно лиричен глас
    Изтърбушена тишина,
    Кънтяща в безкраен час

    [припев]
    [припев2]
    Сън, звън, мрак, смях, нощ, ден, крив, прав,
    луд, край, пръв, кой, как, аз, пак, знам...
    Аз не разбрах
    Само аз не разбрах...
    Вик , стил, ден-два, кой-как, пак, те,
    Аз, той, тук-там, ние, пак, тука, че...
    ... са чудни игри
    за болни души..
    Болни души!

    Пръст от пръстта -
    Лек авантаж в стил
    И почивка за теб и мен
    От безкрайния, сив кадрил